August 31, 1990 63 don’t pay attention to the one calling you a motherfucker be aware of the one that smiles in your face with a knife blade cold against your back giving an educated speech about how we all are born equal until certain things that differentiate from class to class from ethnic group to ethnic group just minor differences that divide the haves from the have nots like the one walking straight into an invisible wall while the other has a uniformed doorman opening the door even at birth some slip easily through a well lubricated vagina others pass through the tunnel in great pain perhaps knowing even then the going was going to be rough right from the start it’s the privileged ones or just plain wealthy & so well connected that all it takes is a phone call & from then on it’s “yes sir it will be done as you wish” in the old movie by de sica a miracle in milano the capitalist wearing the tuxedo & a top hat asks the butler while standing in front of a shanty town made of refuse by the railroad “who are those” “those are the poor sir” answered the servant but then they used to call such movies neo-realism October 6, 1990 96 insane hiding in catacombs subterranean trains awakening them going through incubus tunnels insane asleep under buzzing lights that morph into attacking bees & swarming wasps insane see laughter in the rat’s mouth see cutting lasers in their eyes insane talking to the octopus with shark eyes descending into lower sewers into deep oceans insane rejected cargo beyond exploitation their brains useless for further experimentation November 9, 1990112 there is an ad on TV selling a spray: kill dandelions the unwanted ugly weedI take from the field the stem holding the dandelion seeds blow into them to disperse the seeds over the land for procreation I pick the fresh tender leaves cut as the teeth of a lion I taste the bitter roots then thank mother earth for this food that sustained so many of us from hunger it’s war time the spring of ‘44 an homage to a very dear plant that is long overdue November 12, 1990 113 thin evaporated shadows elongated trembling against a white calcified space veiled apparitions escaping from another time frame capsule candle smoke consuming the tenuous wick flickering film frames later copied into video with the old black & white tape full of drop out & technically bad editing a tall thin polish woman with striking features spoke to me of war in a night of love it was the middle 50’s then memories were reflecting over the cheap wine glass since then washed sterilized afraid of being contaminated by left over germs & the smell of pulverized buildings burned out beams that held someone’s home how ancient one must be to speak of such a time a time when lines of shadows carried on their backs all the possessions their bodies could sustain as is the bag lady carrying a home in a plastic bag her real home destroyed the shadows in streets of a country that’s quick to bomb many others when never a bomb fell on its soil except its own made atomic bombs detonated in the desert for experimentation a country at war with its people with racial wars / class wars / economic wars eating its own internal organs dropping to oblivion lives not worth for profit or exploitation human throw away discards in the land of greed in the land of fat in the land of shadows |